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This post starts with a deep breath.

We've got a plan.

I mean, we've always had a plan. But the closer we get to the actual day Paul leaves for deployment the closer the plan gets to being the Real Plan.

I don't want to get into the specifics of how our "plan" has changed in the past six months. Mostly because I hardly remember it all.

All that matters is that now we know this :

Paul is to report to Port Hueneme on July 11. He'll spend some time (a week? a week and a half? two weeks?) transitioning and then he'll take off from there (or LAX? or another random airport I don't know about?) to Afghanistan. He'll be in Afghanistan for about seven (or eight?) months. Until mid to late February (or early March? or late March?).

I'm feeling a lot of things right now, but I'm focusing on eliminating anxiety. Everything is going to be okay. I've got seven (or eight) months to be anxious and worried and lonely. (Not that I acutally plan on wallowing like that.) These next four (or five?) weeks are for anything but all of that.

Today starts Paul's final week as an medical intern. This weekend his college buddies are coming into town to see San Diego and celebrate. Then Monday, after his "graduation," we're driving over to Palm Springs to stay at the Ace Hotel for a night and then to spend a week in Palm Desert. Both of our families are going to come join us for the holiday weekend.

On July 4, we're going to drive up to Sacramento for a few days so Paul can say hi (and good-bye for now) to his Grandma and our families. Then we're driving back down to spend our last weekend in San Diego (because we'll be moving up to the Port Hueneme area as soon as he gets back) together.

On July 11, we'll be up by Ventura for as long as it takes to get Paul prepped and ready to roll out. We'll be crashing at some yet to be determined on base (or off base?) hotel.

I have no idea what my schedule (work or otherwise) is going to be like the next four weeks. But I do know that I am going to celebrate every moment that Paul and I get to spend together. This is our first real break that has lasted longer than two days in over a year. It will be followed by our longest and most difficult separation so far and I want to soak up all this extra time then store it in some sort of basket so I can pull it out when I need it most.

(They sell those sort of baskets on Amazon, right?)

I'm looking forward to the calm before the storm and the work slow-down before the "OMG it's the second half of the year and you have a long way to go to get to the dollar amount you wanted to hit by the end of 2011."

So…YES. Look for regular blog posts this week and most of next. And then look for random but heartfelt updates until I get my footing with this new adventure.

This post ends with a deep breath.

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49 responses to “anticipation.”

  1. Reen Avatar
    Reen

    Wow! This calls for a “Just Breathe” mini book? Prayers and all the best!

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  2. Armalite Avatar

    Best of luck to you both. You are amazing people and I’m sure this will make you stronger, both as individuals and as husband & wife.
    (On another topic entirely, I got my summer book a few days ago and I’m very please with it ^^)

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  3. Marie T Avatar
    Marie T

    Sending you and Paul love and light.

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  4. molly Avatar

    I found myself taking a deep breath with you! All the best to you and P.

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  5. Nikki Avatar

    My husband has deployed to Afghanistan twice. It’s hard. It’s also a great time to grow and thrive and learn. And the day he comes home? Best. Day. Ever. In your whole life. Every time.
    Chin up, girl. You can do this.

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  6. Johanna Avatar

    We don’t know each other, Elise, but a post like this makes me want to say – and when deep breaths are not enough, you can come over and hold my baby boy when he has hopefully entered this world alive and healthy sometime in August and make funny faces and eat some cookies I bake for you. “Over” is Germany, so maybe it’s not all that practical, but you share your thoughts so openly with us that I just wanted to share some love, too.

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  7. Kim Avatar

    I’ve been through 3 deployments and had tons of anxiety before the first one. I’ve learned to stay busy and plan fun things to do while he’s away. I always do a girls trip or take a new class. That way, even though I don’t want him to deploy, I have something that I’m looking forward to about deployment. Surround yourself with good friends and those months of deployment will actually be a lot of fun. And homecoming, definitely the best day ever. 🙂

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  8. JayEssJay Avatar

    I’m with you on the craziness and unknowns of the next couple of weeks. My husband, too, starts a new job (in a new state) on the 11th! Lots to do, but trying to just soak up these last moments.

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  9. Kathy Avatar

    YUK, I don’t know how any person copes in your situation but you know what, people do. You put one foot in front of the next and you have lots of hobbies to keep you interested. Maybe you’ll have one of those post deployment babies!!!! Something worth waiting for hey! Even if you think you can’t do it, you will and you’ll get through it. I like the idea of enjoying the time for the moment and lapping it all up….lots of funny silly pictues of the 2 of you together…what about a mini pre-deployment book of you and paul photos only…..good idea!!! Kathy A, Brisbane (ps my parcel arrived to my new place, thanks heaps – haven’t done a thing with it yet but we are winter here in Australia and I’m freezing). xxx

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  10. marta Avatar

    loved this. oh elise, you are brave and will make the most of the time apart. and how the heart will truly grow fonder. good luck. change is hard. harder than i knew it to be. glad you are soaking up all the goodness now. xo.

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  11. Sandi Keene Avatar

    Hugs and then more. We are here for you when you need a shoulder or an ear. Soak it up for now!

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  12. Suzanne Avatar

    wow girl, i got a little misty-eyed reading this. i have been on both sides of a deployment and it is so tough, but Nikki is right, it is a time to really focus on learning, growing and also making self-care a top priority.
    i’m sure you know all this, but lots of personal (snail-mail) letters are SOOO important; i didn’t have that on my deployment and know it is huge for keeping your sanity.
    there are also some good online support groups for the people who are left at home. i found them quite comforting for anxiety. and they provided humor and inspiration as well 🙂
    navigating this will be an adventure for sure but blogland knows you can do it! big hug to you and paul!

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  13. Michelle e Avatar

    Thanks for sharing Elise!! My thoughts and prayers are with you – you’re an awesome and strong person and I’m excited to see you get through this tough time – I know you can and will! 🙂

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  14. Alexandra Avatar

    Elise, this was such an amazing, heartfelt post.
    You can do this. I’m not going to say it’s not going to be hard, but you can do this. You are an amazing woman, and I’m excited to see what else you come up with to “pass the time.”

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  15. sarah Avatar

    You are one heck of a strong lady Elise! And if I know anything from following this blog for years, it’s that if anyone can power through this challenge it’s you 🙂 Enjoy every single moment these next four weeks and your blogging buddies will be here to support you when you need company during the months that follow. Sending the happiest of thoughts to both you & Paul.

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  16. Lisa Avatar

    You are a better woman than I would be about this. I hope everything works out for the best 😀

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  17. andrea. Avatar
    andrea.

    this makes me happy for you and sad at the same time. happy because you know, it will be over. those months will be some of the hardest. the unknown. but, when you catch him online (e-mail) and can have a “conversation” with out hours of gaps. you’ll talk about it for days. i e-mailed my brother (who is deployed) and he wrote right back and i called my sister-in-law and she jumped out of bed for those precious 15 minute conversations. i know you can do this. everyone that follows your blog will be here when you need a (virtual) shoulder. i am sad that you have to experience this. but, like everyone has said, the reunion will be the best day ever. you’ll fall in love all over again seeing him get off that plane.

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  18. Jennifer D Avatar
    Jennifer D

    Just wanted to say I am thinking of you both as you begin this journey.

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  19. Marcy Avatar

    I’m praying for both of you Elise! I can’t even imagine how you feel right now! Enjoy your time together!

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  20. Cat Avatar

    I’m taking deep breaths right along with you. We’re preparing for a deployment that’s sounding almost exactly like his…only a few weeks left for us. 😦

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  21. Beth Avatar
    Beth

    I said good bye to my husband for six months last night. It was rough but we have a plan, too. Thanks for being willing to share – it helps me a ton to know that other women do this and we all make it through!

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  22. susan ku Avatar
    susan ku

    Sending hugs & prayers. So good that you have made a mutual plan – friends, keeping busy, faith and love will see you through. Thanks for being so open and honest.

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  23. kim Avatar

    hugs & prayers coming your way!

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  24. Skye Avatar

    You have a great attitude about this and that will get you through. I hope you have an awesome time together in the next few weeks!

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  25. Koko Avatar

    So well said, you are going to do amazing and the time is going to fly by. I can hardly believe Quincy has been gone 2 months. The last few weeks together are the hardest because you want to be happy and enjoy each other, but then you randomly cry cause it’s so scary. I am 100% here for you once Paul leaves would LOVE to come down and see you and get lunch, etc.

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  26. La'son Avatar
    La’son

    Blessings of protection & health being sent your way & Paul’s way.

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  27. Kelly Cree Avatar
    Kelly Cree

    I soooo appreciate Paul’s service and your sacrifice—to keep the battle “over there” instead of here. Have a wonderful few weeks together. We’re rooting for you both! How about a “Distance makes the heart grow fonder” mini-book! Consider sending him with a camera…and have him send you pics of “Doctor Deployed”!

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  28. Linda Avatar

    wow, now that you know the plan, I hope you do just soak up every second with each other. I know deployments are hard on a couple (my brother, a chaplain in the army and his wife, along with their 6 kids had to endure 2 separate, 15+ month deployments.) Do whatever you need to to stay happy and busy. I am sure if you do find time to post, we’ll all see how busy you are. Don’t worry about loosing readers, I am sure you have a lasting following. I wish you the happiest, most honeymoon-like time this time leading up to the big send off. Best to you both as all the days unfold. -L

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  29. Linda Avatar

    ps. I have so much appreciation, admiration and respect for any service member, especially as they serve overseas.. tell your husband thank you. He’s the man!

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  30. Holly@Country Girl Avatar

    I have been following your blog now for a few years and just have to say that this is one of my favorite blogs I follow. You write all of your posts with such heartfelt honesty that it makes all of us feel like we know you. Enjoy your time together in the next few weeks! I’ll be thinking about you and praying that things go well with you and Paul over the next few months! Good Luck! Look at the positive, I’m sure you will get an insane amount of things done for your shop while he is gone! Can’t wait to see what you come up with next!

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  31. Mel Avatar
    Mel

    All the very best wishes for your upcoming adventure.

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  32. racheldenbow Avatar

    Deeph sigh…
    Having just sent Brett off for a month without much contact and dreading it for a few weeks prior, this topic of separation is fresh on my heart. You sound like you’ve got your game face on and, as you said, a plan. You guys are strong and you’re going to learn a lot about yourselves. And you’ll do it gracefully because that’s who you are!
    Sending a big hug!

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  33. Sandy Avatar

    First congrats to P for his graduation. Congrats to you too. Enjoy every moment which I know you will. I will keep you both in my prayers.

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  34. Lindsey Avatar
    Lindsey

    Want to first say congrats to Paul for finishing his intern year-as a 3rd yr med student I understand what a hard year that can be and that is awesome that he has accomplished that!!! I really admire and appreciate what he will be doing next and lots of prayers to both of you! I only found your blog at the beginning of this year but I can already tell you are a strong person and can make it through this! And you have a lot of followers in this blog world that are here for you. Enjoy the next few weeks!

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  35. Adrith Avatar

    My husband and I are just at the halfway point of a year long deployment. Sending you and P good thoughts and wishing you both smooth sailing on your first go-round.

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  36. Susan Bowers Avatar

    sounds like a good plan. as a retired military servicewoman myself and the wife of a former special operations soldier I know for a fact that these separations are doable. but it is all about your attitude that makes it doable. it sounds like your attitude is spot on.

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  37. Sarah Swann Avatar

    My husband is currently deployed in Afghanistan as well. He gets home in two weeks! He wasn’t gone as long as Paul will be gone, but stay strong. The most important part of our military role is to keep things together and stay positive so they don’t have to worry about us over there. Take as much stress off of his shoulders as possible so he can do his job. Some wives freak out on their husbands every time they talk and that’s not a good situation. Keep yourself busy. It’s a good time for lots of work and focusing on yourself. And the reunion? Will be priceless!

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  38. Breanne Crawford Avatar

    If I’ve ever met a strong woman before, it was you. enjoy this time together. Best of luck to both of you as you make this new transition.

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  39. Kelly Avatar
    Kelly

    I have followed your blog for a while, and have been married to an air force pilot for 20 years. We are currently 4 months into our ??st deployment, there have been so many I have lost count. I agree with everything said before. Deployments are hard and do not get easier, BUT attitude is everything. You will be fine and he will be fine. Enjoy these weeks together and make lots of plans for when he comes home!

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  40. mary Avatar

    having a plan is always a good place to start. best wishes and prayers for you both.

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  41. Carrielyn Avatar

    Oh, hugs from strangers may not be comforting… but I so wish I could reach out and hug you! I remember the countdown to my husband’s deployment… and I remember those arguements between my heart and my head… and oh… just HUGS!!!!

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  42. Cindy Avatar

    Blessings on you both as you transition into a new phase of your life!

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  43. Katie Orse Avatar

    Hang in there and keep yourself busy. My husband was TDY 220 days out of the year, and was the first team to deploy to Afghanistan 3 days after 9/11. That was the most stressful day of our lives. And I can’t believe I did it all with 4 kids. So, I know you can do it too!

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  44. A. Sanborn Avatar
    A. Sanborn

    Hold on to your “faith”… taking one day at a time, one foot in front of the other, Elise!
    Believe it or not… February’s just around the bend!
    GOD Bless,
    {-AS-}

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  45. Milady Griffin Avatar

    So, Elise – your blog is the one that I read, especially when I get stuck on a project or am lacking motivation, and I always feel a little more excited after I read a post or two. I’d love to give you some similar emotional pick me up type words, but all I have is that I know you can do it. I’ll be praying for you and for P. A friend of mine has been an army wife for about ten years, and has spent more time away from her husband than with him (and they have 3 kids! eek!). She is amazing about it though, and she would tell you that attitude is so important. Letting her husband know that they miss him but are thriving at home is one of her most important responsibilities.
    I agree with previous posts – girls trips and trips in general will be so good for you during this time!
    Best of luck!
    Milady

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  46. Kayla Avatar
    Kayla

    Thank you for sharing your journey in your military life. Deployments are hard but you are doing exactly what is good for both of your hearts before this journey, spending your time together.

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  47. Pixie Avatar

    I’ll keep y’all in my prayers! I can’t imagine what this will be like for either of you but I can pray and send hope, love and peace your way.

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  48. Maryn Avatar
    Maryn

    My husband went through Port Hueneme en route to Afghanistan and found a delicious sushi place near the gates:
    Sushi Ichiban
    207 E Channel Islands Blvd
    Port Hueneme, CA 93041
    (805) 984-4408

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  49. Claudette Avatar

    Hi there! Found your blog on Pinterest and I love your work. Hang in there, I know it’s easier said than done but you’ll get through it! Prayers will go out to your dh for a safe tour in the Middle East as well to you to be strong. If only you were still in SD, maybe we could craft/scrapbook on those days you need a friend. Take care and be strong! GOD Bless!

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