enJOY it

I am in love with a boy who I have known for 11 years.  A boy who lives across the country.  A boy who has already dedicated the next 14 years of his life to becoming a doctor. 

And once all of this had hit me, I realized that to be with this boy I would need to plan out my life based on his next 14 years.

And then I flew across the country with that on my mind.  With the idea that I was going to move to the East Coast after graduation. 

And then I landed.  And saw the boy.  And I saw how he has established his life.  And I realized that I have to do what the boy is doing: Follow my own dream.

And right now, it does not seem like my dream for a career will be found in Maryland, or even within a 15 mile radius.

And so, I struggle.  Struggle to determine if it is better to follow my dream or follow my heart.

And then I remember that this summer the boy told me that the thing he liked most about me was that I had my own goals and I would not let anything stop me.

And I smile, because that is how I know it will all be okay.