enJOY it

People tell me that the blog is "so happy and upbeat."  I have been thinking about this a lot.  Trying to determine why that is true.

I have a couple theories.

First, there is the obvious: These past couple months I have generally been happy and upbeat.  I do not have too much to complain about…school is great, work is okay, summer is coming, my ID is real, my friends are funny, my life is easy.  It is not too difficult to come up with "happy" things to say.

Second: I have determined that when I am in a good mood, I am also more observant to what is going on around me.  I take a greater interest in what other people are doing and saying.  I have comments on it…thus I type.

The third theory is probably the most legit.  When I am down or tired or angry or sad, I still start to write.  But putting it in black and white trivializes it.  As I type, I start to realize that whatever is getting to me is really just a lame fight, issue or reason to be sad.  And while recognizing this does not immediately make me happy again, it helps me to gain enough perspective to keep going.  To talk about it.  To think about it.  To go to sleep.  To run.  To do something besides dwell.  Sometimes the stuff that I do not write down and save to the digital world is what I learn the most from.  It is the unwritten that gets me to the next happy moment…and blog update.

I think that explains it.  If you still want to hear me bitch and complain – come live with me.  …Somewhere out there Jenny, Sally & Megan {and Mom, Dad & Ro} just nodded.