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36weeks

I'm at that point. That point where complete strangers are interested in the baby and want to know when I'm due. And if it's a boy or girl. And if she's my first. I don't mind the questions at all. I spent the last 10 (15? 20?) years being totally curious about pregnant women and little babies myself and so it's fun to temporarily be on the other end of the questions.

Quite often it comes up that Paul is deployed. I am never exactly sure how the conversation heads there, but inevitably it does. I always share that he's coming home for leave shortly after she's due. After that tidbit, these conversations wrap up with the kind stranger wishing us success in getting him home before she arrives. I leave the encounter smiling and offering up my own wishes, grateful for extra good thoughts and hopes that we'll become a family of three all together.

All the other stuff that supposed to come with being this far along in a pregnancy is so far (joyfully!) absent. I am not yet wishing away the time. (Probably thanks to the knowledge that getting her here early means more time before Paul meets her.) I am not yet too uncomfortable. I am thankfully still mobile enough to sit cross legged, handle random household chores and get on and off the ground. I am quite sure she hasn't "dropped" but happily breathing or lung-pressure is not an issue. I don't want to (yet) throw out all my clothes. And perhaps most importantly, I am sleeping well, waking up just once during the night. Not all of this pregnancy has been easy, but the end, so far, has been excellent.

And turns out I am fan of the GDM diet. Yep. Seriously. It's keeping me and baby girl healthy. It's easy now that it's become routine. I feel it's helping me eat well, stay full and keep us both growing appropriately. I am going to talk a bit more about what exactly I am eating in a future post, but I can say unlike a normal "diet" there is no "will-power" involved. This is about doing what's right for the baby, not about looking good or losing weight, and when you factor that in, it's a totally different ballgame. And one I am enjoying.

The craziest part is how all these tiny, seemingly un-noticeable changes over 280 days add up to one monumental change. I cannot believe what my body has undergone so far. I cannot imagine how much it has yet to grow, stretch and open up. It's a miracle already and yet, I keep remembering that the final part, the biggest miracle, is in front of us. I recently watched a beautiful birth video, and when the brand new baby arrived, I took it all in. The most remarkable part to me was her little face. Those features! Those expressions! Suddenly, out of nowhere, I remembered there is a person that's going to be born. Not just the collection of arms and legs that constantly dance across my belly, but a tiny human with a tiny face.

Safe to say, as I realized that, I feel in love with her, with Paul and with this adventure all over again.

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39 responses to “@ 36 weeks.”

  1. Leigh Anne Avatar

    I’m so so glad you are comfortable and enjoying the last part of your pregnancy. And I found the GDM diet pretty good as well. And actually, 3 years after the birth of my baby I find myself returning to that diet. Partly to lose weight but mostly because I like how I feel physically, mentally and emotionally when I eat that way 🙂

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  2. Armalite Avatar

    You’re a ray of sunshine Elise (and I’m 42 with no kids and absolutely no interest in children as a rule). Wishing you all the best for the end of your pregnancy.

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  3. Marina Avatar

    Hi Elise, I always get a bit emotional when I read your pregnancy related posts 🙂 Enjoy everything of this pregnancy until the end, your baby girl will arrive when she’s ready to do so and without warning! Wishing you a wondeful month and don’t worry about getting uncomfortable towards the end, not everyone does…I went for an aqua aerobics class the afternoon before my little one was born.

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  4. Claire Avatar

    I just love how you express yourself so honestly and that video – oh my – it bought tears to my eyes. So much excitement, emotion and happiness to look forward to.

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  5. Laney Avatar

    That is such a sweet post. Thanks for sharing!

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  6. Alyssa O Avatar
    Alyssa O

    I’m glad you’re feeling well!! You’ll have your baby girl with you before you know it. 🙂
    I’m just 3 weeks behind you and thankfully am also feeling pretty good. But with this being my 3rd and I carry WAY out in front, people have been asking when I’m due since 6 months along. It’s honestly pretty funny and I love getting the comments because I know I’m getting close to the end. 🙂
    Enjoy the last few weeks and savor those fun end of pregnancy things like washing tiny baby clothes, packing the hospital bag and the diaper bag.

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  7. sherried Avatar
    sherried

    Thanks for sharing. You are such a good writer! Prayers for you three through the end of the pregnancy.

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  8. ChrisyC Avatar

    You’re gorgeous Elise.
    You’re going through one of the most momentous changes in your life. And by the looks of it you’re really soaking it all in.
    Having your first child is something you’ll only ever do once!
    Enjoy.

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  9. Ffion Avatar

    What never ceases to amaze me is how tiny and perfect a baby’s hands and feet are. Those teeny weeny nails, those soft little fingers… absolute miracles of nature ❤

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  10. lisa fine Avatar

    Beautiful post, Elise. I got chills reading this, especially the last line. Life is so beautiful, and it’s amazing what joys we can find in each part of the journey.
    As always, wishing you lots of good health. So exciting to be reading along!

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  11. Toni From Avatar

    I am so happy for you both. You are a gorgeous pregnant lady. Are you going to get a pregnancy photo taken?

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  12. elise blaha Avatar

    Thank you! I am, yes, tonight actually.

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  13. Michelle Avatar

    But the real question is…. Can you shave your legs?!?!!? :-))

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  14. Beth Avatar
    Beth

    You are such a gem!!! Loved this beautiful post.

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  15. kelly thompson Avatar

    I love the miracle of birth and pregnancy- I hope you continue to feel great and experience the joy that comes with it(given the circumstances)
    blessings!

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  16. Brianna Avatar
    Brianna

    That was the most tastefully done birth video I’ve ever seen. Kudos to them for keeping it real.

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  17. Elise M. Avatar

    My cousin also had gestational diabetes when she was pregnant with both of her kids. It balanced off after they were born which I read is normal. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy! Looking forward to hearing all about it when you return from maternity leave 😀

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  18. Valerie Avatar
    Valerie

    My husband and I both say that GDM was the best thing to happen to my pregnancy. I am terrible with self-control and like you say, it is no longer about self-control when the health of your baby and yoruself are a factor. I was a little heavy when I got pregnant so the GDM diet helped me in that I only gained 10lbs when I was pregnant. I lost inches in other areas of my body so I like to say that my weight migrated. I lost all of my baby weight within days of having my girl and breastfeeding helped me lose another 30 lbs. While I did feel deprived every now and then, I chose to keep a list of the things I was seriously craving and within a few weeks of my daughter being born my husband indulged me and after I had my fix I was good. Good luck Elise…. this is suck a wonderful time for you. I have really enjoyed getting to know you and your family through your blog (i started reading shortly before you got married).

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  19. krugthethinker Avatar

    I am so happy for you and Paul.:) Really, really excited for your new adventure, and really happy you’re enjoying this part of it too:)

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  20. blair Avatar

    So beautiful! I’m glad you are enjoying your pregnancy. I LOVED being pregnant and from time to time, I miss it. Though having my wonderful daughter is a pretty good consolation prize.

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  21. Shirsha Avatar

    All the very best till your baby girl gets here! 🙂 I absolutely love how you’ve gone through your pregnancy so gracefully and well, bravely. 🙂 And every time I see that bookshelf of yours, I make a mental note of having something like that in my home, some day.

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    Janna

    o.my.word. near tears with that precious video! Thank you for sharing that! I have 4 children. It is such a miracle every.single.time. That is my dream to have a baby at home like that. I don’t think my husb would ever go for it, but I can keep the dream alive, you just never know, it might be possible someday;) I am so happy for you that you are feeling so good with your pregnancy. you are experiencing one of God’s most amazing miracles ever. I can’t wait to “meet” your precious baby girl;) My hopes and prayers are for Paul to be with you too. It’ll all go how it’s meant to go and will be just perfect for your little family.

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  23. Jenny Avatar
    Jenny

    Elise, I’m 36 weeks today as well and it has been so fun to read your posts and compare and contrast! My husband, although not deployed, spends a good deal of time away for business, so it’s been really comforting to know there are other ladies going through it “alone” as well! Thank you!!

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  24. Lynda Avatar
    Lynda

    You know, I only came to your blog a few months ago. At first, it was really about the bread recipes. lol. I wasn’t interested in pregnancy stuff, but I find myself drawn in by your posts. They’re lovely. As a 48 year old mother of two grown children, living in Canada, I’m going to resist the urge to offer up any advice! I really just want to thank you for the sharing and wish you all the very best!

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  25. Cerise Avatar

    It’s so good to hear you are feeling so great. Hope that continues.
    That video totally made me cry. It was so beautiful. I’ve been missing my tiny babies lately. They grow up way too quickly. Watching them at 4 and 2.5 it hits me almost daily.

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  26. orange gearle Avatar

    Such a beautiful post. I sent it to my oldest daughter, who is expecting in October. I hope she reads all your baby posts. 🙂

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  27. Kellie Winnell Avatar

    I absolutely loved reading this here post. I read often I am just a slacker in posting. Its great to read that your so happy and in love already. If I wrote a blog a while back say, 7 years, I think mine would had sounded a little like this, in the way that your happy to answer questions, happy and excited, in love already and just happy and content all round. I was like this more so with my second. Long story why not the first and third. But reading this takes me back and I would do it all again, birth and all, as I’m one of those crazy ladies that loved the birth.

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  28. Martina Avatar

    A beautiful post (as always 🙂

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  29. J3SS1C4 Avatar

    This is an amazing post… You sound so happy and everything seems to be going so well for you! I hope this continues for the next month, and can’t wait to see your pregnancy pics!

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  30. Liz Avatar
    Liz

    You are looking good! I hope you have an easy delivery and a healthy, happy baby!
    P.S. Be careful about telling (or who overhears) that you are living alone right now. 🙂 (I’m just a worrywart!)

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  31. Brooke Avatar

    Owh, so lovingly written. I look at my little boy’s face (both boys actually, but in particular my 2 year old) and savour every second of that cuteness. It goes so fast, but I do love that I fall more and more in love with my kids every day.

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  32. Kathy Avatar

    I can’t believe you are 36 weeks now…those last 6 weeks flew bye in a blink of an eye…getting exciting now 4 weeks or less to go…you have grown heaps (well baby girl has grown heaps) you still won’t believe that she was in your tummy when she comes out even though she will be tiny….you just can’t imagine it even seeing photos. Pregnancy is certainly an amazing thing and even more amazing as you find yourself content just sitting and staring at this little human that you made – totally amazing the beginning of life. Regards Kathy A, Brisbane, Australia

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  33. elise blaha Avatar

    Really excellent point. Usually it’s just the old ladies at the cut counter at Joann’s or women in my bar method class, but I will be very careful. Thank you!!

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  34. Melissa Avatar

    Elise! I also loved the GDM diet. Probably the healthiest I have eaten in my life and it didn’t seem hard. Good luck with the next few weeks and Im so glad you are feeling well! – Melissa

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  35. Annie Avatar
    Annie

    Elise, you are so strong and brave 🙂 i love your posts, they make me happy. Wish you the best for the next weeks!

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  36. Sarah Avatar

    Just found your blog… I’m in love.
    Our styles (house) are so similar and you have a great perspective that you share.
    Good luck with the arrival of your family and new baby.
    Thanks for posting!

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  37. Marissa Avatar

    What a beautiful post. Brought me to tears.

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  38. fancyscrapper Avatar

    I had to watch that “Nova” video . . . omg! So precious! I had four adorable girls of my own, and each one is a miracle. I bet you’ll love motherhood as much as I do. I was shocked at the depth of my joy and fulfillment. Took me totally by surprise.

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  39. Heather Avatar
    Heather

    Good for you!! Reading this makes me feel like I should have savored the end of my pregnancy more. I was happy and comfortable until about 38 weeks, and then I was just done. It was difficult to perform my job after that, and when I sat down my ankles would swell instantly. I was crushed when my due date came and went with no baby. And I admit it, I got tired of people asking when I was due! I was so excited to meet my son that every extra hour felt like something to “get through”. Man, I was a grump! Next time I will aspire to have your late pregnancy zen mindset. You have the rare ability to really savor the moment of life you’re in, while still looking forward to tomorrow. I admire that so much. 🙂
    And I agree, birth never stops seeming like a miracle! A new person will be born into existence soon! So beautifully awesome.

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