enJOY it

Which makes sense as I feel about 180 degrees differently than I did then.

No Go On Gap.

Which should not upset me so much because I was prepared for the No Go.  I thought I had already mourned that loss.

But apparently not.  Apparently my eyes have decided they are officially waterfalls.  Really obnoxious ones, not pretty ones like in Yosemite.

She liked my proposal.  The project that i poured myself into for a week.  She did not like my responses to the behavior based questions.  The questions that I provided horrid answers to for 15 minutes.

I CHOKED ON THE QUESTIONS.  BIG TIME.

AND IT COST ME.  BIG TIME.

AND IT HURTS.  BIG TIME.

And I know the sun will come out tomorrow and all that good stuff.  And I know I will find something else and all that good stuff.  And I know it is their loss and all that good stuff. 

But right now I am 180 degrees from accepting any of it.