enJOY it

So I was told that I am intense.

Like as a personality trait.

And I cannot believe that after half a year of writing about myself and 21 years of thinking about myself I never figured it out.  But intense is my word.  The word that describes me.  As in, "What is the one word that describes you?"  "Intense."

So now I know.

And I think that intensity can have a negative connotation.  And sometimes my personality has a negative connotation.  Like I refuse to listen.  Like I yell.  Like I become insanely stubborn.

But I also think that it is my intensity that drives my passions. That keeps me motivated.  That makes me want to find happiness.  That makes me excited and interested in various things.  It makes me be me.  Anger management issues and all.